When so many shitty things happen in one's life, amidst all the frustration and broken dreams, it takes an experienced hopeful like me to look at the better side of things and still be thankful.
I am so glad I advocated this during my lunch hour to my work mates, this thank-you list, like a yoga instructor, otherwise I would be giving up this habit formation after only two entries as I am having 'one of those not so good days'.
Here is my list for today:
- the fact that I said I wanted to spend the rest of my life with this person and meaning it...on that rainy, drunken night. Most of the time, I regret the things I say or do when I've had too much to drink. And believe you me, it ain't pretty, those things I've done... *shudders*
But this, I don't. And I'm not even sad that he changed the subject right away when I said it. It was just so him. It was just so "us". That's exactly the type of response I wanted. I feel that I am sure I want to. But I'm not sure what would have been my reaction if he said, "Let's do it!". I would have completely freaked out and drove my car over the bridge and swam far and away. I mean, "I just wanted to let you know how I feel! I'm still scared of totally committing!!!"
I love those moments.
-forgetting to put the chunk of dark chocolate in the fridge. It's so much better in room temperature.
-being able to run today. :) I am thankful I have healthy, injury-free legs.
-my friend who had found the girl for him. We went out the other night and we got along with her. I just hope it lasts. But at this point, I can say that I am really thankful they found each other.
-at Jollibee in Dapitan across UST, I got to have 2 breast-part spicy chicken for my two-piece chicken meal. They normally would have one breast part and the other is a teeny tiny leg part.
-being able to talk to an old colleague on the bus ride home from graduate school. We used to share our heartbreaks to each other back in 2008. It's been four years and being able to talk to her made me realize how far we've come and how much we've grown. Plus, she looks great!
-Sunday nap times. I really appreciate them. Everytime I lie in bed after arriving from church and having our Sunday breakfast, I breathe a long sigh and curl up in bed like a baby. Wow. You can't have that when you are married and have children, can you?
-I am thankful I was able to make music which I love and believe in. I listened to my "Gabi Na" album and the sound and themes still ring true today. It's like I was able to preserve a part of me in those records in a way no journal or diary entry could.
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