I weighed in today and I still haven't lost a pound. "I've been killing myself for days!!!" as what Romy White (Romy & Michelle's High School Reunion, 1997 film) said.
No carbs. Running. Working Out. What else do I do to lose weight?
Anyway, I should just move on with my THANKFUL list:
-a great "date". I think I charmed my way through it. You know how it feels when you walkaway and you feel you've nailed the job interview?
-a great haircut.
-a great run at the gym treadmill and a workout after that.
-the kimchi that I made turned out well.
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Did i just say 'forever'?
When so many shitty things happen in one's life, amidst all the frustration and broken dreams, it takes an experienced hopeful like me to look at the better side of things and still be thankful.
I am so glad I advocated this during my lunch hour to my work mates, this thank-you list, like a yoga instructor, otherwise I would be giving up this habit formation after only two entries as I am having 'one of those not so good days'.
Here is my list for today:
- the fact that I said I wanted to spend the rest of my life with this person and meaning it...on that rainy, drunken night. Most of the time, I regret the things I say or do when I've had too much to drink. And believe you me, it ain't pretty, those things I've done... *shudders*
But this, I don't. And I'm not even sad that he changed the subject right away when I said it. It was just so him. It was just so "us". That's exactly the type of response I wanted. I feel that I am sure I want to. But I'm not sure what would have been my reaction if he said, "Let's do it!". I would have completely freaked out and drove my car over the bridge and swam far and away. I mean, "I just wanted to let you know how I feel! I'm still scared of totally committing!!!"
I love those moments.
-forgetting to put the chunk of dark chocolate in the fridge. It's so much better in room temperature.
-being able to run today. :) I am thankful I have healthy, injury-free legs.
-my friend who had found the girl for him. We went out the other night and we got along with her. I just hope it lasts. But at this point, I can say that I am really thankful they found each other.
-at Jollibee in Dapitan across UST, I got to have 2 breast-part spicy chicken for my two-piece chicken meal. They normally would have one breast part and the other is a teeny tiny leg part.
-being able to talk to an old colleague on the bus ride home from graduate school. We used to share our heartbreaks to each other back in 2008. It's been four years and being able to talk to her made me realize how far we've come and how much we've grown. Plus, she looks great!
-Sunday nap times. I really appreciate them. Everytime I lie in bed after arriving from church and having our Sunday breakfast, I breathe a long sigh and curl up in bed like a baby. Wow. You can't have that when you are married and have children, can you?
-I am thankful I was able to make music which I love and believe in. I listened to my "Gabi Na" album and the sound and themes still ring true today. It's like I was able to preserve a part of me in those records in a way no journal or diary entry could.
I am so glad I advocated this during my lunch hour to my work mates, this thank-you list, like a yoga instructor, otherwise I would be giving up this habit formation after only two entries as I am having 'one of those not so good days'.
Here is my list for today:
- the fact that I said I wanted to spend the rest of my life with this person and meaning it...on that rainy, drunken night. Most of the time, I regret the things I say or do when I've had too much to drink. And believe you me, it ain't pretty, those things I've done... *shudders*
But this, I don't. And I'm not even sad that he changed the subject right away when I said it. It was just so him. It was just so "us". That's exactly the type of response I wanted. I feel that I am sure I want to. But I'm not sure what would have been my reaction if he said, "Let's do it!". I would have completely freaked out and drove my car over the bridge and swam far and away. I mean, "I just wanted to let you know how I feel! I'm still scared of totally committing!!!"
I love those moments.
-forgetting to put the chunk of dark chocolate in the fridge. It's so much better in room temperature.
-being able to run today. :) I am thankful I have healthy, injury-free legs.
-my friend who had found the girl for him. We went out the other night and we got along with her. I just hope it lasts. But at this point, I can say that I am really thankful they found each other.
-at Jollibee in Dapitan across UST, I got to have 2 breast-part spicy chicken for my two-piece chicken meal. They normally would have one breast part and the other is a teeny tiny leg part.
-being able to talk to an old colleague on the bus ride home from graduate school. We used to share our heartbreaks to each other back in 2008. It's been four years and being able to talk to her made me realize how far we've come and how much we've grown. Plus, she looks great!
-Sunday nap times. I really appreciate them. Everytime I lie in bed after arriving from church and having our Sunday breakfast, I breathe a long sigh and curl up in bed like a baby. Wow. You can't have that when you are married and have children, can you?
-I am thankful I was able to make music which I love and believe in. I listened to my "Gabi Na" album and the sound and themes still ring true today. It's like I was able to preserve a part of me in those records in a way no journal or diary entry could.
Saturday, September 8, 2012
Let there be light
Thankful for:
- what our cook served for dinner. Monggo soup with ampalaya leaves. Served hot. Didn't taste so good because of the bittertaste but I know it's heart healthy.
-that friend who shed some light on me in a dark bar. He told me that I keep blaming external forces for my frustrations, when in fact I should be changing what's inside instead.
-my work lunch buddies who take the edge off on a busy day.
-that it rained today so I didn't get to run. I guess my body needed to rest after running three days straight. Watched my Oprah DVD instead.
-lying in bed and just hanging out.
- what our cook served for dinner. Monggo soup with ampalaya leaves. Served hot. Didn't taste so good because of the bittertaste but I know it's heart healthy.
-that friend who shed some light on me in a dark bar. He told me that I keep blaming external forces for my frustrations, when in fact I should be changing what's inside instead.
-my work lunch buddies who take the edge off on a busy day.
-that it rained today so I didn't get to run. I guess my body needed to rest after running three days straight. Watched my Oprah DVD instead.
-lying in bed and just hanging out.
Friday, September 7, 2012
Grateful
So today I got to receive my Oprah DVD's in the mail. It has six discs which feature highlights of the show.
One thing that left a 'heartprint' in me is that when she told her audiences how she started writing 5 things to be grateful for everyday. That was an AHA moment. She said that after knowing that you're going to have to write a list about those things you have to be thankful for everyday, it will completely change how we live our life and more importantly, how we perceive things. WOW.
I will now be using this blog to write those things...
Here's my list for today:
- The Oprah DVD's which I'm absolutely enjoying as they give me food for thought, new perspectives and more... Thank you Oprah. I hope I can watch these with mom.
-My willpower to continue on my low-carb diet. I am very proud of myself.
-My car... even though it's quite rundown, I really appreciate how I can use it for a more faster and comfortable ride to work.
-My friends who bring me laughter and affirmations.
-Quiet nights like this.
-How the spots on my legs are starting to clear. I hope they aren't anything serious like what the dermatologist said.
I think that's about it. I'm looking forward to tomorrow. :)
One thing that left a 'heartprint' in me is that when she told her audiences how she started writing 5 things to be grateful for everyday. That was an AHA moment. She said that after knowing that you're going to have to write a list about those things you have to be thankful for everyday, it will completely change how we live our life and more importantly, how we perceive things. WOW.
I will now be using this blog to write those things...
Here's my list for today:
- The Oprah DVD's which I'm absolutely enjoying as they give me food for thought, new perspectives and more... Thank you Oprah. I hope I can watch these with mom.
-My willpower to continue on my low-carb diet. I am very proud of myself.
-My car... even though it's quite rundown, I really appreciate how I can use it for a more faster and comfortable ride to work.
-My friends who bring me laughter and affirmations.
-Quiet nights like this.
-How the spots on my legs are starting to clear. I hope they aren't anything serious like what the dermatologist said.
I think that's about it. I'm looking forward to tomorrow. :)
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